Have decided to move blog.

It's been a great year of 2006, but I'd like to start the new year fresh, different from the way I was at the start of this year. If a fresh start is possible, I'd really like to have a real go at it.

So here at is -

indiscriminate-mumblings.blogspot.com

I think a few of you might know this was where I posted my autobiography for the english grade. Haha but I like the name. Though it may be a torture to type. Lol.

Cya there :)

9:28 PM;
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Ahh well it's back to early mornings again. Plrrsshh.

Have to wake up at 6 the next 2 mornings if I wanna make it on time for camp. And from what I hear it's gonna be just lectures. O_O

At least I'm gonna go watch Curse of the Golden Flower tmr after it. Haha.

And apparently SYC camp echo is on friday night 7pm O_O Why isn't it after church on Sun! Chances are I'm going, but it's quite a commute from school to BMC. ><



On another note, I don't understand how someone can live at tanah merah mrt and not know where BMC is o.O

lol.

8:05 PM;
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I'm increasingly bemused by my computer.

Although at the moment, not that I'm complaining.

After receiving Age of Empires III for a christmas gift (YESYESYES! xD) I set about this morning trying to install it. Some of you probably know that my computer is screwed up, seeing that I can't install things on it without going into safe mode. Well, this morning, I found that it couldn't even install in safe mode, and normal mode was being its usual infuriating self. So I started tinkering around with settings, removing drivers, changing configurations. And not to mention reverting to Last Good Configuration more than 5 times after I horribly screwed my InstallShield up. o.O

After I gave up, and just left the installation (which hanged again) for 10 minutes, suddenly the installation started -_-

Then I installed it, only to find it hang while installing DirectX drivers. -_-

So I had to manually install the drivers by copy pasting, then tikamtikam get it to work. At the moment the game only works from the C:\Programs folder. Well, at least it works. But it sucks alot of power out of my graphic card, so I can only run textures on Medium/High unless I want to continue seeing green blobs flash across my screen constantly. Lousy pixel shaders.

And even more weirdly enough, when I booted up my computer I tried installing Windows Live yet AGAIN. And true enough it didn't work. I wasn't very surprised. What got me more surprised was I tried again, without changing ANY settings, and this time it finally installed o.O

Again, not that I'm complaining.

My computer is weird. At least I've got AOE3 and Windows Live installed. Hahaa.

12:23 PM;
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Heh. This is the first time I've been able to actually just sit down at the keyboard, relax, and just think since coming back from Shanghai. (Surprise, surprise)

It's been a refreshing 1 week plus, stolen away from reality. The past few days in particular have been rather unreal, where for once, I can just concentrate on the moment, live for the moment. My biggest concerns have been what christmas presents to get for people. Superficial? Maybe.

But reality has this annoying way of creeping back and biting you on the ass. And so now I find myself being forcefully thrown back into reality, back to school again. The last week of the holidays already? Just how did it pass so quickly?

Time flies while you're having fun.

I've had a wonderful month, and perhaps one of great significance for the rest of my life. VBC, SYC, etc. You know what I want for Christmas? That this moment will never end, that it'll stay December '06. Hah, wishful thinking indeed. No harm in wishing though, is there? Is there?

One thing that struck with me, can't remember who said it though:

The Israelites lived in the past, for its in the past that they see the grace of God in their lives, and that gives them the strength and conviction to walk into the future. I want to live like that. Not to live in the past, but to draw strength from it for the new day ahead. :)

I know my posts don't really make alot of sense, or even sound coherent or in any order, but its just random stuff that spouts out when I'm just letting my fingers run on the keyboard. Bear with me. Haha.

K enough of this. Bye.

10:07 PM;
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Nope no post about Shanghai just yet, I haven't transferred to photos over to this computer. It's still sitting pretty on my dad's notebook. It seems increasingly unlikely that I'll ever get to do it this week, considering that after tomorrow I'm off to PSL camp, then CCA resumes. I look with increasing anticipation towards saturday; gah, it feels like the hols are over already. It's like a hangover feeling.

Still can't believe I went for two services today. Haha. And a big THANK YOU goes out to all you people who've given me presents :))

Joanna: the shirt's damn nice! xP

Btw, I realized that my Shanghai trip was really cheap (all things considered). Look at it this way:

Return trip on SIA from Shanghai to Singapore - $1200 per pax

Tour to Shanghai (inc. of trip there and back on SIA, food, accomodation) - $1000 per pax

See! xD

8:02 PM;
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I'm baaaacccckkkk....

In time to greet the 150 new messages in my inbox. Work stares me in the face. Reality bites hard.

Shall post about my trip when I've got more free time. As it is, I'm already really sleepy and more than a bit irritated by the quantity of my inbox. But before I forget:

MERRY CHRISTMAS PPL! :)

Goodnight.

11:36 PM;
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Kevin Mark Lee you owe me that lunch. Hahaha..

Because of this bugger you see here I wasted 3 hours of my life this morning going for a meeting in school that was canceled. Fantastic start to my day indeed. Yesterday was the wet shoes fiasco, now this. I suspect that tomorrow morning may hold more of the same. I drip with anticipation. Hah.

Whoops haven't finished packing my carry bag. Nevermind. Can't be bothered.

5:26 PM;
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At Chee's behest, I shall post. Although about what, I honestly have no idea.

Right.

Tinkering with my blogging style again. I think it looks better like this. Don't you?

Just came back from the trip briefing. I still have no idea why I had to go for it. Nothing imperative that I needed to know (or even wanted to know). Turns out there's another 15-year old guy going for the trip, but have no idea who he is; only saw his parents there. Nevermind, for this trip I shall adopt a 'take things as they come' policy. Although honestly there's no other way to spend a holiday; I mean, who spends their holidays worrying? ...

...Well. Here we go again.



I really don't know sometimes. If you get angry at me right, if there's a valid reason I have absolutely no complaints. But why is it that recently for no reason at all you've barked right into my face? I got quite mad last night, but managed to control myself. Now, I really don't know how to react already. Gahh.

Perhaps why I react the way I do is because I still lack these two qualities: Humility and Meekness. I find it extremely difficult to turn the other cheek when I know or feel I've been wronged. And I simply can't find it within myself to just deny my own pride. Sigh. Lord, help me. I don't like being like this. I need these obstacles to be removed. I need breakthrough. I need breakthrough.

When will it come? Hurry, hurry.

9:51 PM;
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2 days until shanghai..hope its an enjoyable trip.

heading to a briefing for the trip in a bit. don't know why i have to show up though.

i had the most retarded start to the day: i woke up intending to go run at 745. got everything ready, heading out alr; opened the door, then realized my only pair of shoes is wet, cos i washed it last night. -.-

shhh don't need to tell me. i know i'm damn jack. -_-"

6:02 PM;
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okay yingjie, have unlinked you..will respect your decision for privacy..

in one of those contemplative moods, although about what i have no idea. just thinking in general i guess. introspective maybe. it's been a rather introspective week come to think of it. but, i think these 2 weeks have been the most worthwhile of my whole year. i have absolutely no regrets about the way i've spent the last 2 weeks.

i don't want to remain the immature guy i was. i don't want to succumb to temptation any longer. i don't want to live a life thinking i can make it on my own. indeed; all i need is You, God. and into Your hands, i commit again.



And the world will know Your greatness
You are my God
Jesus I will
Shout Your praise!

11:28 PM;
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i'm back from syc!

i think it was a massive time of revival for EVERYONE. it was altar calls every night, and the response was seriously amazing. -nods- i think God really spoke to me during this camp, and i made a promise to God (that for now will remain secret). oh and every night was just CHARGED. so many amazing things happened; for me the biggest highlight was the praying for tongues :) haha i think its such a wonderful gift la, and i'm really really really glad it happened. there was a lot of rededication, making Jesus our FIRST LOVE, breaking ourselves before God; just so amazing. may we be a generation of IMPACT for Christ! i believe :) supercharged for God indeed.

the third night was just so SO AMAZING. the worship session was just so ENERGETIC :) haha running to the back of ROL and back, forming a train and just jumping around uninhibited. and i'll become, even more UNDIGNIFIED than this :) haha and the altar call was just amazing. when pastor joyce called us to the altar, she told us RUN not walk. RUN to God! yah it was really affecting, and we were all annointed with oil, with the mark of the cross. i'd like to think that it will be something that will be seared into me forever, that i'd NEVER forget this night of revival. and the praying for TONGUES. out of the 31 who stepped forward to be prayed for for the gift of tongues, by the end of the session 25 of us received it :) yeah and the only word that can really describe speaking in tongues is EDIFYING. even though i have no idea what i was speaking it really was edifying for the spirit. how alive the word of God still is today :) oh and the 2 hour session extended to 4. WHOA and it didn't even feel like it.

and a BIG THANK YOU goes out to pastor joyce! i think she really delved deep into the heart of God and BMC, cause i could see that her words and message and prayers really resonated deep within every single one of us. the power of God is really at work! :)

haha i found the games fun too! although i came back FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE OBS sunburnt o.O in my WHOLE LIFE i can count the number of times i've been sunburnt on the fingers of one hand.

was abit o.O to be the youngest in camp (at age 15), but the people in my group were really nice! my grp had jansen jolencia justin alex charmaine ivan rachel (is that it? can't rmb) haha and we had a lot of fun. team boulders ftw! the highlight of our grp had to be the lunch out together, went to thai xpress and had a great lunch (soft shell crab xD) and laughing and nonsensing about. heh.

Praise God!

and we'll dance dance dance in the freedom we know

10:36 AM;
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i think i'm addicted to blogging.

even though my posts might be less than interesting to read, nvm i'm doing it for my own benefit (:

heh.

i honestly don't know what to expect from syc. partly cos the age group is up till 28? and i bet theres a lot of ppl i dun even know -.- YAMers mostly..nevermind, i'll take it as it comes..

but the one thing that i expect is that God will make this camp a memorable and fulfilling one. i know i won't regret going. :)

seeyou guys on monday!

7:33 PM;
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tell u sth. i don't like reading my blog, cos i barely sound coherent in any of my posts -.-

have been out since 1030, going to hanlin's hse. we ate lunch, cursed at the rain, and went to lan. lanned until 4 then i went home. sigh stupit piano lesson.

i wonder what my calling is. i want to serve in ministry, but just where do i belong...maybe God will reveal it to me during SYC. especially with the camp theme as 'Our purpose, in Unity'.

ohyes i'm going for SYC! i finally decided last night. toobad quite a few ppl aren't going. at least ryan is, since he was 50-50 like me since a few weeks ago.

shoutout to all u guys at bangkok: hope u're having fun! takecare :)

6:34 PM;
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